As we sit for lunch we will raise a toast in your honour

God Bless
Love Mum and Dad xx

I didn't understand how much it would hurt to heal. I thought I'd be further along by now. A bit more intact. Some days, I float weightless atop my grief. Allow it to carry me freely wherever. And others, I'm pulled into the cold, endless depths of it.
Wave after wave of reminders and memories. I thought by now I'd be stronger. I'd be able to swim out from the undertow and breathe again. I didn't understand how much of me is missing without you. I feel so lost. I'm tired of condolences and well wishes. I want to laugh with you again. I want to see you walk through the door. I want to hear your footsteps coming toward me once more. I didn't understand how quiet life would be without you here. There are only echoes now. I call out and wait for a reply I know isn't coming. I didn't understand how much of my heart was home for you. I'm filled.2k with empty spaces I'm not sure what to do with now. How much can one person lose before there's nothing left of themselves?
I just didn't understand how much it would hurt to heal.

Merry Christmas Simon you are loved and missed everyday,by the family.

merry christmas to my Nan Sarah and all our Family in Heaven all sadly missed love Sharon and Familyxxxxx

merry christmas sunshine have a wonderful christmas in heaven i love and miss you,Aunty Sharon and Family xxxxxx