Today is Mother's day and again we'll spend the day talking and remembering you and how important you've always been in our lives. It's so hard not having you here and being able to see you. I remember being a little girl and the silly things we'd do in Carville Gardens, I remember how safe I felt wrapped in your arms. Although you were young when you had me you were always an amazing mam. You used to say we grew together and we did. You were there for every part of my life and you made me feel so special. You taught me to be strong, independent and brave. You taught me to be kind, compassionate and to always defend myself. Then you taught me the most important thing and that was how to be a mam myself. You were there for the girls everyday and truly treated them like your own. You loved having them to yourself and devoting your love and time to them. You treated Brian like your own son and always stood by him. We really were blessed. I can't ever get over the fact you aren't here and my heartbreaks everyday now you aren't here. We'll spend today talking about Princess Diana, fudge the dogs, the Christmas's we had and the joy you brought us. You never understood how special and important you were to us even though we told you often. You never understood how much we relied in you just being here. You never understood how beautiful you were on the inside and out. You never understood that loosing you would break our hearts. There was nothing we wouldn't do for you mam because there was nothing you wouldn't sacrifice for us. We'll tell our stories, look at your photos, watch videos with us on holiday, we'll cry but most importantly we'll remember the kind, loving, forgiving, gentle, strong, brave wonderful lady you were. Watch over us now as you did in life mam. Love you always and forever Donna, Brian and the girls xxx

I will spend your anniversary remembering how important you were, are and always will be to me and my family. Losing you gets harder everyday because its 1 more day longer that I've seen you. My tears fall so hard it feels like I can't breathe and my chest is going to burst. Losing someone who is as kind, loyal, loving and special as you leaves you empty and broken. I would end my life today If I could have 10mins with you again. If I could say everything again and again and again so you understood how much you mean to me. You never could see everything in yourself that we could and you'd never have accepted how special you were. Our lives are diminished without you, our hearts can't heal because you aren't here and the joy of life just doesn't exist because we don't have you. In our home we're surrounded by your photos, we're surrounded by your stories and we're surrounded by the love you gave us. I'll wake with tears on your anniversary and I'll go to sleep with tears because without you mam I'm broken. Its because you were so special that living without you hurts so much. We love you mam, Donna, Brian, Savannah and Crystal, always and forever xx

Christmas came and went again and while as a family we enjoyed our time together it was again a painful reminder that we don't have you with us, that we're counting down the days until your anniversary and our lives are so effected without you. Everyday we talk about you, Everyday, we laugh, we cry, we remember the amazing lady you are still to us. Savannah and Crystal have so many memories of you, their second mam, they feel your loss terribly and still struggle without you. From the moment I told you I was pregnant you couldn't wait until you could Savannah in your arms, you were such a proud nana and you'd sit with her in your arms for as long as you possibly could. When Crystal came along she was the baby and you spoilt her terribly, you spoilt both of them. You would sit just watching her and smiling and you never could resist taking the fancy dresses I'd put on them off n having them in their little bodysuits. They were both so special to you, Savannah being your 1st grandchild and Crystal being the baby you smothered them in love, attention, care and devotion and they feel exactly like that for you. They miss you mam and were blessed to have you help shape the ladies they are. Brian really looked at you as a mam even though there's only 8yrs between you. You welcomed him into our family and always said he was my perfect fit. You wouldn't let anyone say a bad word about him and there was nothing he wouldn't do for you. Losing you hit Brian hard, you were so close and it made our family so tight because we all loved each other. When it comes to me there's not enough room here to say how thankful, how lucky and how blessed I've always been being your daughter. You always said we grew up together and we'd take the world on together. Every moment in my life you were by my side and knowing you are loved like that mam made me feel so loved and special. They say every child is a blessing but as a lady, a wife, a mam, a mother in law and a nana you were the blessing

Yesterday I celebrated my 50th birthday and while everyone tried to make it so special for me my heart was heavy because you aren't here. You were with me for every important event and birthday yet not for my vow renewal last year or my birthday yesterday. I know you are watching over me but I would have gave anything to have had you hold me. I know you would have made a big fuss and told me how much you love me and how proud you are. Its so very hard every time there's something special and you aren't with me. We carry your love in our hearts and your memories in our minds but we wish we could have you here with us. Not a day goes by that we don't talk about you, remember you or look at your photos. Mam you were definitely 1 of a kind and made each of us better because you were in our lives. Love you mam, always and forever Donna, Brian and the girls xxx

I spent today and yesterday as I spend most days mam, with you in my thoughts. There's so much I still need you for and somedays not having you here just about destroys me. We were so close to each other and did everything together that I'm forever looking for you at my side. All our celebrations were together, we travelled together, planned things for the family together, we enjoyed the good and faced the bad together. Things go through my head everyday about our lives and what we experienced but I still can't find any comfort in them because you're not here to share the memories with. We even raised our children together and I'm your daughter. My girls miss you everyday too cause you were an extra mam for them and for Brian you filled that space too. You'll never be forgotten mam n in my darkest days I'll still reach out to you cause I know you walk by my side. Love you mam and miss you forever you truly were the best mam n nana and we were blessed to have you. Love you Donna, Brian and the Girls xxx