Mothers day came again and I woke with the pain of knowing I couldn't see you. I spent the day remembering all the years we had together and how loved you made me feel. I remembered all the years I had on my own with you and how special they were. Even when my siblings came along you always let me know that I was special to you. I wish I had you here so I could tell you what an amazing mam you were, how blessed I was to have you. Me Brian Savannah and Crystal have so many fantastic memories of you and we remember how you mothered us all. We share our memories of you and we share our pain that you aren't with us. I came to the cemetery and again my heart broke because you are so far from us but I know you watch over us mam. Thank you for being the person you were because that made you the best mam ever. If our love could be made into steps we could climb them to the heaven's to be with you. We love and miss you mam, always and forever Donna Brian Savannah and Crystal xx

It's almost your birthday mam and I'll visit your grave as I do all year but at the time of your birthday it's always hard. I wish you were here to feel how much we all love you how important you are to us and how blessed we are to have you in our lives. We are all carrying a part of you inside us because we were and are loved by you. You never saw your importance, your light, your beauty or your value because all that mattered to you was the once you loved. You had a capacity to forgive and understand others who did you wrong while we raged at your pain but a true apology and you would forgive. Mam you were strong beyond belief, you were brave up till the end and you will be loved, missed, cherished and remembered forever. I'd give my life for the family to have you 1 more day because you mean that much. Our hearts will break, our souls will cry out and our smiles will remember a lady who was so loved, so special and so needed. We'll love you until we're in your arms again and on that day we'll truly feel peace and happiness again. Love you always mam, Donna and the family

Another year and your anniversary came around and our hearts broke again. It seems 5yrs is so long yet only 5mins ago that I held your hand as you took your last breath. I cry, I pray, I wish and I remember all about the lady who brought me up and stood by my side all my life. I miss hearing your voice, hearing your laughter and cuddling you and I know I always will. Everyday we talk about you, laugh at our memories and remember the good times we had together. When I met Brian you welcomed him into our family and you knew he was the only one for me. You helped raise our daughters and they hold you close to their hearts. In our home remembering you is an honour because having you in our lives was an honour. So I'll close my eyes and pray again that I can have a sign that your ok mam because until I get that sign I'll never heal. We feel your loss in everything we do but we also keep you alive in everything we do. You were, you are and always will be loved and missed

Christmas came and went because without you it just isn't the same. Taking you away from us ripped our lives apart and any celebrations are just lesser without you. Every Christmas was a mad dash with last minute preparations and you panicking that you didn't buy enough or have enough food to feed us but you always made Christmas special every year. We miss the decorations that covered your home, the look of joy as the kids open their gifts and the food that could have fed 10 families. We feel the loss of you so much and Christmas just amplifies that loss so much more. We talk about you and keep your memory alive because that way its like a piece of you is still with us. In our home we love talking about you and enjoying the memories we have of you. The only thing I ever wish for at Christmas is a sign you're watching over us. I miss you mam and always will, you were more than just my mam you were my best friend. We love you and we'll miss you forever love you Donna Brian and Crystal

It doesn't matter how much time has past, it doesn't matter how far away you are, it still breaks our hearts. I was blessed to have you as my mam and not a day goes by without me missing you. I still talk to you everyday and can hear exactly what you would say. I wish we had longer but it still would never be enough. We talk about you and remember the past both good and bad and we keep you alive and present in our lives. I know your watching and I wish I could hold you but I can close my eyes and remember everything about you mam. We went through so much but I always knew that as much as I looked after you I knew you'd look after me more. The days roll on and the pain rolls with them. We love and miss you always and forever Donna, Brian and Crystal