Tomorrow comes again Craftsman.Then Schornsteinfeger.costet again.
Then, Heizöl.All that,Money, which I have saved to see your Family again, can be gone.But, after that, I save - I try again.Some Time, is I just wrote to you once, ran on RTL - Radio - again - Fields of Gold. Do I have to remember it when we heard it, how many Times - alone. And then you - with Paul - you played this together. I've written this to you once before. You called me back then, from the Pub, when you played it with Paul.
We talked for a long Time at this Evening.Before you - played with Paul, you were, because of everything happened,
what was then, not good. But, after you both played together, - you were doing something like that You fealt,whas good.

I missed you so much -

xxxxx Tina,Love you - you where always by me - every Day -




I miss you so much.

I´cant for it,but every Day, I missed you so much.What we`ve both have - everything. Like you`re Family, - We,I have to live with this,that.But I can`t

Every body,one,who said - time,healts all - said something wrong.What is not so.And everybody,who said this,thougt it,had never love the Person,Human - he lost.

I know - I can change nothing.But every Day without you - is,was - for you`re Family now Day - and realy - for you`re Family so hard to live,spent - and for me too.

You where the best Person - the great Love in my Life. And nobody can give us back,what we - both lost - us,our Life and Love.

Wish,you where,can be here. I ,missed you so much


xxxxxLove,Tina

xxxxx Love you.

With every Thing,what you have done for,with us,to me,what you have done for 36 Years,while you where young - I all understand that so much - I - whan we´ve had the Chance - to live,to do it again - I will always be - with you,by youre side,stand behind you - but I would done things other - for you,to change hold - your Life

you where always with me!! And I hope,after the German Goal - North Irland wins !!

Had you - as strange, funny, stupid it may sound, already Monday evening, when I was in Boppard, written.But, the "rest of the family", consisting of two people - again everything was different, come in between. We always have already, when dad and you, I watched Germany England - games together - hoped England wins. Papa has always allowed you, if England has scored a goal. Similarly, if we always hoped Ireland wins.

Hope - North - Ireland - wins against Germany. Now Löv is talking again - I think he is so smiling - when he just opens his mouth and talks.

I miss you - as always - so much. Dear God, he does not know what he took from his dad, Ann, with you - him, your family - and with it, me too

I wish you could be with me.


xxxxx Missed you so much Mark,Tina

Everything is bad again.

Everything is bad her again.But, that's nothing new. Tomorrow with my mother to Boppard. Would rather be alone in our church, without her, where we have always lit a candle for your mom and dad. Every time we were in Boppard. It falls to me - be it in Halsenbach, Boppard, always very difficult, because I never thought that I - the next years, a candle - for you - without you - must light. Just as hard as me every day without you - one Living without you, that I have to live, I do not want to endure. Just as your family does not want to endure. Hope very much that your family is doing well !!!

I miss you so much.....xxxxx Tina

And right now, I have received the next bad news. I can not anymore.
The wife of Shelly - You knew her, me you, both of us - she was such a great, great person - born 65, - two years - born before me - dead! I talked to her two weeks ago, as she had done before, and saw her. She - was not sick, one of the best people I knew - dead.

What is the good God thinking of doing something to make it happen, with Papa, Dir, Ann. Walterraud, Shelly `s wife - helping with firefighters, policemen, people saving other people 's lives, etc.
I am also a believer, Can not always go to church for work and everything, as you have done. But - one, can also pray at home. The belief in God, one must not say, I know, I have lost, when God did not give you the chance - for you, no matter in life, with which woman - finally - to be happy again, to lead a happy life, to experience it, to have it.

The message again - really gives me the rest.

Am with my mother Monday in Boppard. Ignite for you and me - same place, as we have always done, - our candles for you, Ann - Papa an.Du have done me so bad that I for you - what I never thought - the third candle - without you - must light.

We, wanted to grow old together. What have you - done - just left us, abandoned.

xxxxx

Today, as yesterday, again everything went differently as planned. Was I unfortunately here again and again, after all that has happened to dad, must machen. Von work frei. Wir all were, after the holiday, the last days ready. The colleagues, 20,23,30 years old, more than me - although I did all the gardening after work - my lb. Colleagues - without gardening, in spite of younger than whame - even more finished. Calm me. So I'm still not quite to the "Old Iron", I'm fitter - as dad always said - t annoyed me in the past totally - Jung Germany. Today, when I'm older, I understand him, knows what he meant by that. What the day before yesterday here would have been done by my craftsman, he did today. Without giving notice. But, it does not matter, another one Construction site, concern less. Have Today at Ebay earned nothing. But for it, of last-earned money, all craftsmen paid. The money was actually for you, your dad, J. to finally come to England.
Goes back again. But, you know me. I can do that. Did you say earlier that I always do everything. If you want something, wish with all your heart, - then, you can do it too. And, I will do that you`re dad wanted to make it all possible for me when everything happened to you. But that, I would never have done - in life as a whole. You know that. Not because I wanted to offend him with that, they say here but because he, your mum, J. - all, very hard for money had to work. I'm not a person who lives - at the expense of others, this takes. So, I'm not. Therefore, I could not on the day in Coventry - "be with you" - where I, with all my heart, would have wanted so much - with you, your family. That was the worst for me.

I miss you - as always - so much

You are always in my heart. You where always by me - and I would do, give anything for that - if it can be, what not can be - that you where - with Dad, you`re Family - and than by you and me.