Yesterday, at 5:45 pm, started to work, until 15 o'clock.Thereupon, here garden, tree, hedgecut until 17 o'clock 10 made with chainsaw.looks nice.Had liked.Has you, as often said.Morning, same time, it goes on.First work, and then again 6 hours of physical work, after physical work beforehand.For me no problem.I'm doing since 9 years since Dad left us.
Have earned on Ebay over 400 euros, which I wanted to have for you, J. and your dad, to be able to meet again. Pat, your, Ann`s family, whom I knew through Deined letters, tales, finally, know learn, the money is back - for house - at, you do not say, but I say now, again, gone on it.

I do not like it, because I want to see J., your dad again. To Ann and you would like. Would have had next monday. Hadn't told my mom about it. So I have time to make money again. What makes you , call tonight. And say you - go Monday, where I wanted to make money, to Boppard.

Although I have no time for it at all. Because I want to go to Boppard, to our church, where you, me, always when we were there - for your mother, for my father, both - always light a candle to have.
I told your Dad in June. I never thought that I would light three Candles - WITHOUT YOU - and than,one of them - for you.

I miss you so much ! And it will never change! You're always with me, too,me, when you can not be with us.No body can`t take me this away,what we`ve had.But Good had take me away - You,everybody I have had in my Life,Ou`re Love - every thing,what - we both had - each other,us .
You don`tknow,how I missed you

Love xxxxx

Tina

With Thomas again one more "on top" get.First the four, instead of a stent, because he weighs only so little.Then, the 3 essential medicines he has to take, he can not tolerate one, although he needs them, was discontinued Well, that's why I'm not writing to you. Well, do not get me wrong, but you know, that's why - and for other reasons, you both got along so well. He - and you, I mean that to you lovingly, not negatively, both of you - always giving you thoughts and worries when you two were not here anymore.
Uschi, you would not like that too, you would not care how I think. She has had to live hard, to suffer. You know how much you endured, managed, taffed you despite all the work you can do But when she was Donenrstag in the shop, I have - and she lets, has never had something in the whole 35 years, since we all know that you have so bad, suffer. I have done what You would have done. And I would have done that without knowing you.

The only positive was yesterday at work. Had from 5:30 to 15 clock. Udo, one of your friends was back in the store. He asked me how I am. I told him, I know, I have to live with it, but it can not I do not realize that at all. Do you know what he said? Did K., your other friends never say! He said, I can understand you, understand it like that.Has not even K.Said.He also said, you have pulled back completely.Then, he paid his purchase, I mean, he has seen your picture in my purse. He thanked God for Tobias, who was a real friend to you. I wrote to you then that, after you were no longer with us, Tobias, without knowing which songs we both liked, Elton John, Tim Rice, Lion King and Lionel Richie Hello so good, bravura played that I had to go out of the room because I was just crying. And he told me then what you said to him. And he has something of I'm glad he told me he could not have believed that, but if you said that to him, then yeah. You know what I mean.

I miss you - as always - so much !!

Today, everything still has not gotten better. One is afraid for Thomas, unfortunately he must have.
Mum and I were first with daddy. You know, I do not need a day like this, All Saints Day, a day here dedicated to the people you love, lost. Mom and I go to dad every other day do not need an All Saints Day, because for me every day is such a day, since I had to lose Dad - and then you.

With dad, is, are now the wrong words for saying so, I have - somehow "" resigned "" that he is no longer with me. Although he also - very much missing -
With you,what happened,that you where not longer here,with yo and me, - I can`t .It hurts so much.
We were then still in Halsenbach, church, where we were always this year, lit candles for you and your mom, when everything happened, you left us. When you were buried at home, etc. As we both in Boppard light every time a Candle for your Mum and my Dad. I would have been alone in Halsenbach dearest. But it was not because Mommy wanted to be there, and she then drove me then finally. Although I walk there as well You would have gone.

You always think of people you love. You do not have to go to a grave. But you know, if there is a grave, as with daddy, you can go there, if you are in bad shape I go nowhere, except, to Halsenbach.

You, I miss so much. My, I miss my life so much. Anyone, one must think that is unrealistic or crazy. But no one had life, what we both - lived, lived, together - despite everything with you - lived Have the respect, the respect, the love, the love for each other. What we both have lived, even though we were not married - have others - in 50 years of marriage - not living together, living - can endure! Except we both, your parents - and my parents.

I would who knows what to do, if you could come back to your family - then again.

I miss you so much

You are always with me and,you will be always with me

With Thomas here everything was bad, not good. Was garden all day, made lots of foliage out of here, for 5 hours. After Ebay set. I finally earned some money for what I wanted to fly to you, your dad and J. But must make repairs before winter wall house, garage roof, hedge, garden, etc. pay, which the landlord does not pay. Also, I manage to make that much money again afterwards, if everything is done, I to you, your family can fly.
Just came on the radio - Every Breath You Take - Police - also our favorite song. I checked out the 80's show again on Sunday, because of the music we both loved so much - I still. The band that played was great. And on Sunday I first saw, if I'm not mistaken, - who played - on the keyboard, the whole show long - sat. I have the Saturday before - not noticed. Ady, if I am not He did it well. He also does not play as he used to, his shoulder is always pulled up during bars, etc. You know what I mean, you told me once. Just that he did not like me because you were then Still, if you two were traveling together, still loyal to me then, he had a different life then. He did a really good job. But, I thought, if you were still with us, Ady knew, do not be angry, you did it great - you, Mark, would have done it completely differently, interpreted, varied. We have so many times But you would have allowed the Ady wholeheartedly. But you would have been with us, you, would have "the crisis" get, if you had not had the broadcast, play. I had a few months ago customers with me I do not usually do such a thing. Privacy, privacy, privacy, etc. I said to the two - ten pfennig - a rare name. I would Ady Zehnpfennig, the name, just short know him both, illuminated me, was family of him.So small, is the world.

I miss you as always very much - and I wish you could be with your family - and afterwards, with me - us.

You, no matter what - until the best that happened to you, us, in my life, you will always be! I miss you so much !!

Think about you,like ever,every Day.Missed you,like ever,every Day.
Love,your`s Tina

Do you know what the Crazy one is? Thomas Gottschalk just talked about the 80s at TV- and - he said - at this Time,than you heard Franz Lambert and Ady Zehnpfennig !! Isn`t this not Crazy that he said that with the 80ìs - That`s so Great !! In the 80iger it gave so a lot of International Musicians what,from them he can explained,told.But he told about Franz !! Franz, whom I treasure so much as Human,he was ever for us both,and as his Wife,too.Thought it was Great that a Thomas Gottschalk knows the music,heard - mentioned in his Program, and told about Franz ! mentioned - is glad me so and I knew,know,that you felt the same,if you where be able to hear this - and you would feel the same,think the same - about Franz

xxxxx

And right now on the radio - they play Feels like Heaven, which we both played together, loved so much

xxxxx