hey nan, me again, i cant wait to see you again, it’s crazy how long you’ve been gone. it doesn’t feel real anymore, i just want you back home, sometimes i think of the times we spent together, which was always so lovely, i’d do anything to see you one last time, i wish i was there to say one final goodbye on christmas day, if only god had told me that you’d leave us so soon, i don’t get why he always takes the ones who cause no harm, but now you’re a beautiful angel nanna, make the most beautiful sunrises and sunsets to let me know you’re proud of me, i need you most, i had my first gcse exam the other day, it was spanish, i would have loved to go to spain with you one day, as my exams get closer, i just can’t help but think you never will get to see me in my prom dress, which saddens me the most, you never will be able to see me open my gcse results, which i tried really hard in, you will never get to see me walk down the isle, which is why i will reserve a seat for you, and grandad, and my other grandad (parsons) when that ‘big day’ comes, i hope i meet someone who will love and appreciate me the same way grandad did to you, i’m just grateful that both of you are no longer in any pain now, i hope god has a special place in your heart as you both have a special place in mine.

goodnight.

i love you
to the moon & back
forever & always
my dearest nanna❤️

happy birthday nan.

i miss you more than anything, i’m failing in mainly everything and my heart is completely shattered, i just wanted one more laugh with you, you brought so much light into my life and now it’s all gone.

i am still not ready, and never will be to say goodbye to you forever, i will always and forever hold you in a special place in my heart.

hey nanny, i hope heaven is treating you wonders this pancake day!! it’s ur amazing day, i used to love your pancakes but now i’m beginning to forget what they tasted like which makes me sad, i wish i could hear your voice one more time, i really miss you and grandad too, life hasn’t been the same without you both here. sometimes i blame myself for it which i know is bad, i should have been there when you passed, i never even got to say goodbye, and when grandad passed, that was the night i was supposed to stay at your house with him while mum, becky and dad went to a career night to see beckys future, i didn’t find out until i got home, when you both passed, i didn’t really show a lot of emotion, but now, i’m hurting the most, i’ve been bullied, hurt, harassed, and i really nee you both here now more than ever you both always had the answers to everything but now i don’t know what to do without you both, just please come back home.

i need you and i miss you

- phoebe

can you please come home i need you so much nanny, i just want things to be the way they were, i hate christmas, i hate my birthday, i hate everything since you’ve been gone, even though you left 5 years ago, the pain is so fresh. i’m struggling to stay here nan. please i need you.

oh nana, i just want to see your face again, one hug, one kiss on my cheek, one last playing in the doll house, one last making dens under the tables and watching all the stuff fall over that we placed for the blankets to stay up (to add weight to them), we’d just giggle, one last hot chocolate when nights were dark, mum was at work, and it was lightening, but you made me feel safe with my hot chocolate in my winnie the pooh cup with the green lid. one last wearing ur skirts as a dress and pretending to act like you on the landing upstairs, one last trying to dodge the creaking step when walking up to the spare bedroom, one last making my tomato ketchup and butter on bread sandwiches (i know it sounds horrible but it’s really yummy) one last coming to your house when i was ill and you’d warm my milk up to put into my wheetabix, one last playing goldilocks and the three bears just by ourselves, one last opening my presents to find colourful bobbles, chosen for me by you. jessica-rose keeps me company from time to time but not the same way you did nan. i just wish cancer didn’t win, i wish it never happened. i only got to see your beautiful smile for 10 years of my life, and when you got sick, i still saw your beautiful smile because you didn’t want to cause anyone any pain or grief, but nana, i’m in so much pain without you. i’ve just started year 11 recently, and i feel like i’m doing everything wrong, without you here i feel there’s nobody to be proud of me, you were always proud of me no matter what i got or did, but now, not hearing your voice kills me, i’ve struggled so much lately and i’m still struggling, school tells me to get over it and accept it, but i honestly can’t, i miss our fairy cakes, i found ur recipe book and i’m going to try some but they’ll never be the same. i hope to look just like you when i grow older, beautiful, smart, and in love. you & grandad just couldn’t stay far apart for long enough that he had to leave too. i love you nana.