16 months
Where has all that time gone ... I miss you so much .... I still cry every day ...nearly time for the clocks to go back and you know I hate it ... I hate the long nights the feeling of loneliness the sadness is multiplied by a million without you ... oh sweetheart it’s beyond vile ... I wish I could just go and get you back I wish I could hold you again to care for you to make you warm and comfy .... oh Tom I love you miss you and I always will .... till I see you again and I know I will , sleep tight my hero my heartbeat my Tom .... love you so so much ♥️Xxx

♥️.... my hero
The love of my life
My heartbeat
My Tom ♥️
I love you
I adore you
I miss you so much ♥️X

♥️💔♥️💔♥️💔
I love you
I love adore you
I miss you so much xxxxx

It’s been a few days since I visited .... because I’m trying not to do this anymore .... I talk to you all the time and I still can’t let go ..... I love you adore you and I will never stop you are my hero the love of my life and always will be ... I have moments of a time when I can smile then I think I will tell Tom about that ... then it all comes flooding back .... oh my sweetheart I miss you so very very much .... it hurts like mad ... they say you don’t know what you had till it’s gone and I lost my heart the day you went :,,, I’m broken I’m so sad and empty completely empty .... till I hold you again the light of my life my heartbeat my Tom ... I love you so much sweetheart... ♥️♥️♥️Xx

♥️♥️♥️Xxx

Awful night, I had to block a stranger trying to get in touch ..... not interested any more .... too late mate 16 months too late ...I miss you Tom till we meet again sweetheart I will always love and cherish our 50 years together....well it was nearly 50, 16 months short but I’m not counting those months I’m carrying on as though you are here .... here with me safe and sound, warm and comfy .... my hero, my heartbeat, the love of my life ... Tom Seal ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️Xxxxx

I love you so much , my Tom . Oh my life I miss you everyday more and more , it’s so hard no one understands what’s sadder no one cares .... I know there’s always someone worse off than me and I am blessed in many many ways and I understand that more than anyone will ever ever know .... but I wish someone would say ... your heart must be broken and I know you miss him so much and we understand why your sad and snappy , but no one does ... they just moan about their husbands ... I wish I had a choice but I don’t .... I’m broken Tom into tiny little pieces that just keep pushing forward but get no where .... until we meet again I will continue to love you adore you and miss you like crazy .... lots and lots of love my hero the bravest man ever .... my Tom ♥️Xx

Not a good day yesterday .... people being happy ... I was there but only in spirit my heart was is broken and they are all in couples and then there’s me , on my own .... I have never felt so lonely in all my days ...still treated differently.... I hate my life Tom ... it’s just work and chores , it’s like I’m sitting in a train station and the world is just passing me by , you know like those time lapse films where the people are just rushing by and I’m just still , just watching it happen .... I can’t enjoy anything ... nothing ... I’m happy for everyone but I’m sick of everything being the norm for most people but not me ..... I did say the house will fall apart , guess what I was right again .. everyone else gets help but all I get is people who want lots of money to do little things in the house and I’m so so sad about it .... sick of being tired and exhausted sick of worrying sick of being fed up .... I am trying .... no one cares .... no one ..... I love you I adore you I miss you so very much .... I’m gonna hold you forever when we meet again... I love my Tom my hero my heartbeat ♥️♥️♥️♥️Xxxx