I’m back … been an ok week I’ve got a bit of what I lost back …. My little life is still very lonely and so very very sad … but I carry on the best way I can …. I’ve been told I need to see the doctor about my life , I’m not going to until it’s very obvious I’m not gonna get better …. I miss you adore you I wish I could speak to you and listen to you tell me to stop worrying stop fretting and everything will be ok …. I do try and convince myself but it’s hard . Almost impossible… already stressing over Christmas… oh Tom I’m wasting my life worrying and fretting … I love you miss you my absolute hero …. I love you adore you and miss you so very very much …. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️…. I wish I could just get you back ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️Xxxxx

Love you so much … will love you for ever and ever and ever I will miss you for the rest of my days and then I will be back with you … the absolute love of my entire life .., my Tom my hero my everything ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️Xx

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Oh how I miss you sweetheart….I really really do …. Awful week waiting on doctors for one of our boys … my whole body was shaking with terror … I don’t know how to keep going all the time , but I do …, everything is changing around me and I won’t lie I’m scared …. I’m so sad sweetheart it’s so so hard with out you …. I love and adore you and I will forever and ever … ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️…. Sleep tight sweetheart I love and adore with every fibre of my being …. My Tom my heartbeat my hero the bravest man ever …. I love you so much ❤️❤️❤️❤️… xxx

Tom .
Awful week I’ve never felt so sad , I’m just sick of being sad and lost I just wish everything would get better . I do try I start with a good heart and before the end of the day I’m back to square one , sad miserable and totally lost … I miss you so much I just wish I could remember how to be me , I’m just so sad and lost without you …. Everything is so wrong …. I just wish you were here with me …. My Tom my hero my everything…. I love you so much … ❤️❤️❤️❤️

I’m back again I do try not to talk to you like this but it helps … fed up again … I think it’s time to talk to the doctors now can’t carry on like this … fed up of it all now …. Missing you like crazy it’s awful … it just gets worse there’s no let up with it all … I love you miss you and life will never ever be the same …. Lots of love now and forever my absolute hero ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️Xxx

3 years ago mom died …. It’s been the worst 3 years of my life and it still continues …. ❤️‍🩹🕊…. Love adore you forever ❤️Xxx