My darling lesley, i cant believe its almost a year since all our troubles began with trip after trip to doctors before that awfull day in may when we were given the diagnosis at the hospital and our lives came to an abrupt halt. I remember the complete shock we were both in and seeing you so upset will remain with me forever, ive never felt so helpless. It pains me each n every day knowing it was the beginning of the end and each day i question why and why it wasnt me. You deserved life lesley, you deserved to carry on and id have swapped places with you in a heartbeat. You gave everything you had, you beat the cancer only to be taken from us by something else.
Somehow lloyd and i must carry on without you here, its so hard as we really miss everything about you and your always in our thoughts each day. Lloyds life is really just beginning and i know how proud of him you were and always will be but i also know how hard itll be for him without you by his side supporting him as you always did and i do try my best for him.
I know there are so many people who read these tributes and im sure each person has their own memories of you no doubt sometimes with tears in their eyes, but i want you to know lesley i will ALWAYS love and miss you so much and the promise i made to you to always remember you and take care of lloyd i shall always stand by.
Lloyd is and always will be proud of his mam and in him i see so much of you. Youve left in body but forever with us in spirit lesley and i always hold you close in my heart.
Until we meet again and we will, i send you my undying love xxx

My darling lesley, your missed each day by so many and lloyd and i think of you each and every day. We both try our best to carry on in life but its so hard without you here. We both have so many happy memories of us all together and we often talk about them to try and ease the pain, but in reality we know we will always have the pain of losing you with us throughout our lives. Lloyd is doing his best and tries so hard not only with his University work but also to lift my spirits and keep me going, he knows how much i miss you and i try to keep my head up to help him in whatever way i can but its so difficult without you here to support us. As you know you always were the heart of our family and our home and as hard as we try it can never be the same. I do try, i even attempt to keep the garden you loved so much up to scratch but as you know in no gardener !!. Lloyd and i even attempted painting, something you always did so i hope our efforts meet with your approval lesley, maybe not your standard but we gave it our best shot.
I feel personally since your passing ive aged somewhat and i will never be the person i was. I try each day to live a life but without you it is so hard to carry on, im sure you of all people understand.
I prey wherever you are your safe and still think about us all as your forever in our thoughts and hearts. Lesley no matter what lies ahead in my life i shall always love you, love the life we had and forever be your loving husband. It was always you and i against the world and we always came out on top because of the love we had for eachother, that love will never fade. I miss you so much and i always will.
Xxxxx

Always in our thoughts. xxx

Well lesley its 6 month since you passed away and the world truelly is a sadder place without you. The world has indeed gone mad, panic buying, no actual contact with people and general worry what tomorrow will bring. Life goes on of sorts and your always in my thoughts. Lloyd, hannah and i miss you so very much and neighbours also miss seeing you pottering around in our garden, everyone misses you in so many ways.
I try so hard to keep my head held high as i know you would want that of me but life IS so difficult without you and i know with you at my side things would have been so much easier. I still picture you in each room in our house and still find it so hard to accept your really gone. Things can nor ever will be the same without you but i made you a promise i would try and do my best in my life and i will always keep that promise to you. You are the only one who knew how much you meant to me and the love we had and still have for oneanother lesley and the truth is my heart still hurts knowing we are apart. I do and shall always miss you in every way and i miss your radiant smile each and every day.
My life will go on and i have found a little happyness which i know you would want me to have and i am so gratefull for that.
I want you to know lesley you are forever part of me as i hope i am of you and i shall always love you so very much.
I often look to the heavens and know you are looking over me, we all send our undying love to you now and forever.
Until i am with you once more, never forget us xxxxx