Well each day rolls into the next and Lloyd and I still struggle on in life without you here. We often talk about you and the fantastic life and times we all had and we are both so very proud of you and love you so much. I know Lloyd has tried so hard to stay strong and continue to make you proud of him as I know you were and always shall be. He is halfway through his exams and although he is finding them tough I know he is doing his very best not only for him, but also you and I and thats all I can ask of him. I keep reminding him that your there supporting him as you always did in life and when he does qualify both you and I will be even more proud of him.
I haven't really changed anything in our home since you were last here other than the odd lick of paint here and there and I try my best to keep it tidy and respectable but each room i go into brings back memories of us together, whether it was decorating or just a general clean up and as we did everything together being without you at my side now makes even the simplest task so difficult. The real heart has gone from our home and can never return.
I miss you sweetheart with all my heart and i always shall. You gave Lloyd and I everything, a life full of happiness and love and you made me the happiest man in the world being your husband, I only hope I did you proud in return. I was always so proud having you by my side and loved coming home knowing you were there.
I know when you passed away I changed Lesley, half of me went with you and I can never be the person I was. I try my best and put on the brave front to so many people but inside I'm broken and its something I will carry for the rest of my days.
I DO love you, I'm proud being your husband and I shall continue to help and support our son in any way I can.
Never forget us darling as we will always remember and love you.
Sleep tight my angel xxx
Your ever-loving Husband:
Left by Your ever-loving Husband:
Left by Ian:
My darling lesley, i cant believe its almost a year since all our troubles began with trip after trip to doctors before that awfull day in may when we were given the diagnosis at the hospital and our lives came to an abrupt halt. I remember the complete shock we were both in and seeing you so upset will remain with me forever, ive never felt so helpless. It pains me each n every day knowing it was the beginning of the end and each day i question why and why it wasnt me. You deserved life lesley, you deserved to carry on and id have swapped places with you in a heartbeat. You gave everything you had, you beat the cancer only to be taken from us by something else.
Somehow lloyd and i must carry on without you here, its so hard as we really miss everything about you and your always in our thoughts each day. Lloyds life is really just beginning and i know how proud of him you were and always will be but i also know how hard itll be for him without you by his side supporting him as you always did and i do try my best for him.
I know there are so many people who read these tributes and im sure each person has their own memories of you no doubt sometimes with tears in their eyes, but i want you to know lesley i will ALWAYS love and miss you so much and the promise i made to you to always remember you and take care of lloyd i shall always stand by.
Lloyd is and always will be proud of his mam and in him i see so much of you. Youve left in body but forever with us in spirit lesley and i always hold you close in my heart.
Until we meet again and we will, i send you my undying love xxx
Your husband, ian:
Left by Your Husband, Ian:
My darling lesley, your missed each day by so many and lloyd and i think of you each and every day. We both try our best to carry on in life but its so hard without you here. We both have so many happy memories of us all together and we often talk about them to try and ease the pain, but in reality we know we will always have the pain of losing you with us throughout our lives. Lloyd is doing his best and tries so hard not only with his University work but also to lift my spirits and keep me going, he knows how much i miss you and i try to keep my head up to help him in whatever way i can but its so difficult without you here to support us. As you know you always were the heart of our family and our home and as hard as we try it can never be the same. I do try, i even attempt to keep the garden you loved so much up to scratch but as you know in no gardener !!. Lloyd and i even attempted painting, something you always did so i hope our efforts meet with your approval lesley, maybe not your standard but we gave it our best shot.
I feel personally since your passing ive aged somewhat and i will never be the person i was. I try each day to live a life but without you it is so hard to carry on, im sure you of all people understand.
I prey wherever you are your safe and still think about us all as your forever in our thoughts and hearts. Lesley no matter what lies ahead in my life i shall always love you, love the life we had and forever be your loving husband. It was always you and i against the world and we always came out on top because of the love we had for eachother, that love will never fade. I miss you so much and i always will.