My everloving Lesley. Im sorry its been a little while since i posted on here. You know i talk each and every day to you so u must be sick of hearing my voice !!, if only i could hear yours once more. Im trying to get on with a life without you by my side but i know in truth your always with me in some way so it does make it easier. Lloyds still doing so well and hes coming to the end of hospital placements then its knuckle down for further exams so i will be getting stuck in testing him again each night.
Im so glad Anne posted on here, your missed by so many but none more than myself, lloyd n hannah. We all still expect you to walk through the door and cheer us up as u always did. Lesley i made the promise id think of u each day and love u forever and i shall always do just that. I try to stay positive knowing we will be together someday and that gets me through each day but i miss u so very much. You were everything good in my life Lesley and part of me will forever be with you. Never forget us nor the love we have for you. Until i am at your side once more and i can tell you in person, i love you now and forever. Xxxxxxxxxx

We miss you Lesley and again when I went to hospital yesterday to be rebuilt.
Claire gave me my treatment and was lovely. We miss your smiling face. If you could just put your face out the door and say hello but sadly not. You are missed so much. I will never forget you for caring for me. God bless xxxx

My darling Lesley, it's so difficult putting into words how I am feeling. It's been so long since you were here to talk to in person and needless to say I miss everything about you. Time without you goes so slowly and the grief goes on and on. I know at some point in my life I must try and move on and I know it's the right thing to do and know you would be giving your blessing to do just that, but reality is it's so so difficult to do. You were my world and with me for over half my life, sharing everything together and having the life many only dream of. I think of you each and every day and often think "what if..." but all I can do is look back at memories. Lesley whatever my life has in store for me I want you to know my love for you as my wife, soulmate and mother to our son will never fade. You gave me such a wonderful life and as a couple we were just meant to be together. I know I must take the step into the unknown and I'm lucky to have found someone who really understands and cares about me just as you did. Life can be and is so unfair but I've got to try and do what I feel is right. All I can ask of you now is guide and help both Lloyd and I through our lives and always remember us and the love we have for you. I made you a promise you would never be forgotten and that promise I shall keep until we are together once more. Wherever you are darling I pray you're safe and thinking of us. Even in your passing, you are my wife, soulmate and best friend. I do and will forever love and miss you Lesley xxxx

My darling Lesley, well here we are the start of yet another year and as expected Christmas was yet again such an awful day without you here. I must admit i was painting gloss work in our home just to fill the day and get it over with. As i start this new year i can only hope the pain and heartache i feel will subside as i know its starting to take its toll on me, however you were everything good in my life and losing you has ripped my world apart. I've tried to stay positive remembering all the good and happy times we had together but feel lost and cheated in this cruel life. Lesley no matter what lies ahead for me i do and shall always love and miss you and this life is so hard without you at my side. I had the perfect life thanks to you and being married to you made that life complete in every way. To have it torn to shreds by losing you is so hard to accept, i feel i'm treading water day after day. Friends and family have drifted away and all i can do is cling onto my memories of which i have so many.
I prey wherever you are your at peace and hopefully waiting for me to be there with you. There's not a single day that your not in my thoughts. In our life together you made me the happiest most proud husband and i shall forever be grateful for every moment you were at my side. Its so difficult trying to live a life without you. All i can ask of you is never forget us and guide us all and protect those who really love you. One thing i know for sure and that can never be changed is you were the best thing that ever happened to me and in all honesty the best that life had to give.
You are and will forever more be in my heart and thoughts and i shall love you until the end of time.
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My sweetheart Lesley, well its Christmas morning again and i didnt sleep much, not through excitement but because ive been thinking of you, missing you and thinking of all the fantastic Christmas times we had together. Today will be such a sad day and although i will visit you at the crem, my heart aches for you and to see you again. Lesley you brought such happyness to everyone not least to me and i miss you so very very much. As lloyd has said " it just doesnt feel right", of course he is completely correct, Christmas is missing everything here and that everything is you.
Wherever you are we miss and love you so much, all i can do is try and get through this day like so many other days but you are and will allways not only be in my heart but my thoughts darling.
Lesley i send you my eternal love and wish you a Merry Christmas.
Your everloving husband xxx

My darling lesley, well here we are into the last week before Christmas. It still feels so wrong you not being here, and although i shall allways have you in my heart and have the memories of such a happy life with you, i miss you so very very much. Life has to go on in some form for us but you were everything to me and held it all together. I struggle on every day and its true when they say we take everything for granted and its not until its gone you really appreciate life and what you had and i miss every second we had together. I wish i were with you now as i do each and every day, each day rolls into another without you here and its so hard to carry on, but i must not for my sake but to help steer lloyd in the right way as i promised id do. Lesley i love you not just now but all eternity. You were the best wife and mother anyone could have wished for. You will forever be not only missed but you are the true heart of everything good this world could offer. Christmas without you will be another dark moment in my life and you will as allways be in my thoughts. Lesley thank you for each and every second of your life you gave to me, you were and are my soulmate and if i could give my soul for just one moment again with you i would do it. Theres not much more i can really say other than i will love and miss you forever and hope one day soon we are together again side by side, until then i shall do my best in this life just as you did in your short time here and my Christmas wishes and love i send to you. Never forget us lesley and shine bright and look over and after us. Your forever in my heart sweetheart now and forever more.xxxxx