I visited Gary's grave yesterday afternoon and laid a bunch of red carnations. The tulips I laid the week before still looked fresh. I think the cold weather froze them a little. I am about to eat my Haggis, neeps and mashed potatoes once they are ready. It brings back memories of when Gary was working on a contract up in the North of Scotland. Braemar early in our relationship. I went up to stay the week whilst he was working. I went to a local butcher and bought all I needed for a Burns supper, including a miniature whiskey. Gary was delighted when he came back from work and we had our first Burns meal together. As it was January the weather was very cold as was the chalet we booked. However that did not bother us as we both kept each other warm. Happy memories.

Tricia Gary's loving partner.
Patricia McCann:
25/01/2021
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Fridays were always the highlight of my week as this is when Gary would return home from working away all week. I would usually get home before Gary. Patsy our dog and I would look forward to hearing his car come into the drive way taking comfort in knowing he was back home to us. Patsy was always at the kitchen door greeting him first. I would always give him a big hug as he was back home. Friday nights were always a night Gary and I would spend with our friends in Carluke. Saturday and Sunday Gary and I always spent together. Today as a front line worker it was a busy, tiring day, still giving the care to those who require it. However my memories of Fridays when Gary returned home are happy ones and they keep me focused and I am able to continue in this difficult time. Silly as it may to some I have a favorite photograph of Gary and I hanging on the wall, we look so happy in it and when I look at it, it cheers me up. Thus I feel I am able to carry on in this difficult time.

Tricia Gary's loving partner.

Patricia McCann:
22/01/2021
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22/01/2021
When driving home tonight from my work (I am a front line worker). I listened to Smooth radio. Over the air came on of my favorite tunes Barry White singing Your My First My Last My Everything. I began smiling to myself as it brought back all the happy memories of Gary and I, when we used to go to nights out, dances etc. when they played this song I would always get Gary up to dance. Now Gary was not a man who liked dancing but he knew I would not take no for an answer when this song came on and we would dance. I am glad god gave us all memories because all the happy memoires I have off Gary cheers me up and keeps my spirits high. This is one of them.

Tricia Gary's loving partner.
Patricia McCann:
13/01/2021
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Hello Gary today I have had a tough day at work. When this happened when you were alive I could always ask your advice in, which as loving couple's do to helps them through the difficult times they experience not only in their work but private lives as well. Well. Gary as you are not here in life I know I can still speak to you and I still have faith in what may be and come may xxx
Patricia McCann:
11/01/2021
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Today I visited Gary's grave. I laid 12 Yellow roses and a purple bunch of Tulips on his grave. I said a little prayer which I always do. I spoke to Gary and let him know how I was getting on in life as I know he would like to know. I feel a lot of comfort in visiting his grave which is a good thing to feel, especially as people I know are feeling anxious about Covid 19 particularly those who have lost loved ones to Covid. Whilst I was there I visited Gary's parents grave and laid a flower. It brought back memories as Gary's mother passed away in 2015. My mother passed away the same year 2015, 2 months before Gary's mother. Like Gary, my mother passed away peacefully and I was by her side as I was with Gary when god called them both home. I was by Gary's side at home when he passed away. This is what he wanted. Gary did not like hospital and his wish was to be at home in his last days with me by his side. He got his wish. There are times during the day and night for no reason at all Loved one's who have passed pop into your mind. When this happens I smile to myself and remember all the good times we shared.

Gary's loving partner Tricia XXX
Patricia McCann:
10/01/2021
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10/01/2021
It has been a very unusual Christmas and New Year this year due to the restrictions of Covid 19. Normally Gary and I would have spent New year with all our friends. We would spend Hogmanay in one of our local clubs and bring in the bells. I have many photographs of Gary and I at these nights out taken over these. One thing about Covid 19 restrictions is that as when you are siting in the house alone it allows me the time to remember all the happy Christmases and New Years Gary and I shared. I brought out our photo album and looked at all the photographs taken over all those Christmases and New year celebrations with our friends and it brings me comfort to look at them and remember all those happy times. Usually on the 2nd January Gary and I would go to our local pub around 3pm as did all our friends. The couple who ran the pub would arrange a buffet free of charge for their customers. A piper would play a lot of tunes on his bagpipes and for the rest of the evening a local singer. What a great atmosphere there was. I miss these arranged get togethers. However I still have my happy memories and these memories of Gary and I helps to keep my chin up and I remain positive in knowing that eventually the Covid 19 crisis will come to an end. I am glad I have all those happy memories.

Tricia xx
Patricia McCann:
02/01/2021
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02/01/2021
Today I and Patsy (our pet dog). visited Gary's grave. I placed fresh Lillie's on his grave. Gary was very fond of Patsy and I usually always take her with me. I remember the times when Gary was home and sitting in his chair Patsy would creep up and end up sitting on the top of the chair right at Gary's face looking into his face he always found this funny and she would try to lick his face. Gary would always say ' all right that's enough kisses. Patsy is 11 years old now and funny as this may sound I still think she remembers Gary as when a car comes into the drive way she jumps up to the window and then runs into the kitchen waiting for the door to open as she did when Gary would come home from work. However when she realises it is not Gary she does not get excited they way she did with Gary she walks away back into the living room uninterested in who has arrived. I also laid flowers on Gary's parents grave I always got on extremely well with his mother. When she would visit for Sunday dinners I would always pick her up and take her home afterword's. I found her to be a very straight to the point person. She would say what she thought without any malice and would do no harm to anyone. I think Gary took his mothers nature as he was the same. Gary never suffered fools lightly. I also visit my parents grave, not as often as Gary's. I usually visit their grave in Glasgow at Christmas time, Mother and Fathers day and on their birthday. I lay fresh flowers. I am old fashioned in a way as I feel this is a mark of love and respect for my parents. I hold dearly loving memoires of my parents as I do with Gary.

Tricia XXX
Patricia McCann:
27/12/2020
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