Went to the local Polling station in Carluke yesterday. It brought back happy memories of the times Gary and I would go to vote. I used to always try and tease him about who he was voting for however he would never tell me, even when I tried to look over his shoulder at the polling booth he would make sure I could not see who he was voting for. I used to laugh because I always informed him who I was voting for. Miss him being with me at the polling station. However I know he was looking over my shoulder yesterday when I voted.

Tricia Gary's Loving partner. x

Had a rough day at work today, it's days like this that I could speak to Gary. Miss the support and advise he would give me when he realised I needed it. The same support and advise I gave to Gary when he needed it. This is part of my life as a couple that I miss, the love and support we gave to each other.

Tricia Gary's Loving partner. X

On my way back from visiting Gary's grave today I listened to Smooth radio as they are paying the top 500 romantic songs. To my delight at number 35 was Barry White's song 'Your the First my Last my Everything' well I was off in a "Tangent" as they say singing alone as I was driving. The happy memories this song has from me and Gary was that anytime we were at nights out when this song was played I would look at Gary and smile as he knew he would have to get up and dance with me. As I always did I would sing this song to him as we danced. Secretly I knew he enjoyed this even though he did not like getting up to dance. As I arrived home another great song was played sang by Bryan Adams 'Everything I do I do it for you'. This is the line in the song Gary would sing to me. (I think he was just trying to get on my good side when he did this). I know Gary was a romantic at heart. Gary and I had total different tastes in music. he liked heavy metal I was more into the romantic type songs. More happy memories I share of my life with Gary.

Tricia Gary's Loving Partner.

I visited Gary's grave today. I stopped off at a flower shop to buy fresh flowers as I always do, whilst there I spotted a lovely poem carved into a stone plaque. The sentiment the words portray are exactly what I do. The poem reads.
I thought of you with love today, but that is nothing new. I thought of you yesterday, days before that too. I think of you in silence, I often speak your name, all I have are memories and your picture in a frame. Your Memory is my keepsake with which I will never part.
God has you in his keeping. I have you in my heart. I had to buy it and it is now placed on Gary's grave. I also placed a lovely bunch of orange roses on his grave as well.
Gary's loving partner. Tricia.

If Gary could see me today he would be splitting his sides laughing at me. As our garden hose is at least 15 years old and leaking I decided to buy a new one. It was delivered from Argos yesterday. So after finishing work today I decided I would connect it up. Well believe it or not it took me 2 hours. Simple as the instructions were I still could not follow them. So I dismantled the old one and noted were everything went and did the same with the new one 'Low and behold it worked' Phew the things I am learning that Gary would have done in no time. Problem is I also bought an all 'singing and dancing' Karcher high pressure washer. Think I will leave reading the instructions to that one until tomorrow, my day off will probably take me a whole day to understand the instructions. I know Gary will be looking down at me and having a little chuckle to himself at my efforts. May 2016 was the last time Gary and I had a holiday together however will leave that conversation till another day.

Tricia Gary's loving partner. x

Hello I am having one of those nights where I am reminiscing on our life. As a couple who spent 17 years happy together, cut short by the disease of cancer, a disease I wish they could find a cure. Even though this disease cut short our time together, which broke my heart, I treasure to this day, the day I met you and the love you, devotion you we shared.

Tricia Gary's loving partner xx

Doesn't life carry on even though you have lost a loved one. Cannot believe Saturday is the Month of May. The lovely Month of May. As the prayer I always sing even today.

Tricia Gary's Loving partner xx

What a beautiful weekend it has been. Gary was great at organising a barbecue. He was great at cooking the dishes on the barbecue and over the years we enjoyed many a barbecue in our garden in Carluke with our friends or just the two of us. Sunday's was another day over the years I enjoyed Gary as he stated "always enjoyed cooking" He always insisted on making the Sunday dinner. I always bought the ingredients. He stated "cooking soothes me" Again over the years we had many a lovely Sunday dinner either alone with friends with our mothers when they were alive. Gary also enjoyed Sunday dinners with his brother in-law, He invited his brother in-law on many an occasion. Regarding our Mothers Gary used to state "For two people who say they are not hungry they always ate what was put down to them and finish a 3 course meal". Gary would also say to his brother in-law he had a healthy appetite. His brother in-law would always state "Gary I was a war baby".
Ah more happy memories of my life over the years living with Gary.

Gary thinking of you today, always in my thoughts. X

Gary's loving partner Tricia.

Friday night again. I always looked forward to Gary coming home on a Friday. Gary worked away on contracts. Leaving on a Monday coming hone on a Friday. I always wished he would take a permanent job nearer home so as we could spend every night together. However in his situation he had financial commitments. I on the other hand had no financial commitments when we met. I suppose as they say I excepted his position. Still love conquers all.

Gary's loving partner Patricia XX