Cannot believe that it is August 2021 already. My how the year is rolling buy. 10th August is a date that previously came and went in my calendar without thought. However that all changed on the 10th August 2016. Gary my partner of 17 years was working away from home in Keswick on a contract. Monday to Friday. 10th August 2016 is a day that will remain sketched in my memory forever. I was working that day and Gary telephoned me to inform me that he was not feeling well, his back especially the right side was causing him a lot of pain. Gary was never one for complaining about pain. I think he had a high pain threshold. He thought at that point it was a trapped nerve as he suggested to me. I informed him that when he comes home on I will message his back with oils as I had always done over the years when he felt stressed. When he telephoned me on the Friday, he was still in a lot of pain and I asked him to be careful driving home from Keswick. I was home that day before Gary. When he walked in the door I knew there was something not right. I messaged his back as promised with no effect. We were awake all night. On the Saturday I was so concerned that I took him to A/E Wishaw General Hospital. He was informed to make an appointment with his GP on the Monday. For me that was a worrying weekend as I am a nurse my mind began to think, what can possibly be wrong this is not like Gary to be unwell. Both Gary and are were awake most of that weekend. I sat with Gary when he was awake and tried to get some sleep when he slept which turned out to be only for 2 hours per day. till the Monday. Gary was in so much pain he made an appointment that Monday 15th August with his GP. Gary insisted I go to work that day. I did however at that point, looking back, on hindsight I tried to convince myself that it was nothing serious.

Tricia Gary's Loving partner.
Patricia McCann:
10/08/2021
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10/08/2021
As I had a day off today I visited my parents grave. My mother and father are buried together in a cemetery in Glasgow. I myself are Glaswegian. I tend to visit their grave on certain occasions. such as their birthdays, Fathers, Mothers, and Christmas. Gary met both my parents. My father passed away on 30th September 2002. I was working that day and it was Gary who telephoned me at work to inform me of the sudden death of my father, he passed away with a heart at home that very morning. My sister Elizabeth thought it was best if Gary telephoned me as she new who close we were. The support I received from Gary at that time was unmeasurable. It was the same when my mother passed away on 9th march 2015. Gary's support was what saw me through a sad time in my life. I am glad that Gary got to meet both my parents. My mother in particular thought the world of Gary and when she visited and stayed in our home in Carluke, Gary would cook her a lovely meal and have long conversations with her, about this and that. I believe that when I visit my parents grave I feel connected to them. I feel I am showing my love for them. I feel the same when I visit Gary's grave.

Tricia a loving partner and daughter. XXX
Patricia McCann:
03/08/2021
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Visited Gary's grave today with our dog Patsy. Laid a fresh bunch of flowers on his grave and spoke to him. I informed Gary how I am getting on since my last visit to his grave on his birthday in July. I know he is listening. I get a lot of comfort from visiting his grave. Cannot believe it is nearly 5 years ago Gary past away. He remains in my thoughts daily and in my heart forever.

Tricia, Garys loving partner. X
Patricia McCann:
02/08/2021
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It is nearly the end of July already. July is a special month for me because it was Gary's birthday month and my sister Mary's birthday month, they both shared the same star sign, Cancer. Mary 18th July Gary 20th July. Sadly I have lost both of them. Gary at 63 years of age Mary at 64 years of age. When I look back on both their natures, personalities they were two people as they say 'who did not suffer fools gladly'. They were straight to the point and would tell you what they thought. Both were hard workers and relied on no one for anything. Strong characters. Must be a Cancerian star sign trait. I prefer people to be straight with me, honest, open and not deceitful, Mary and Gary were neither. Maybe that is how they got on so well with each other they shared the same traits. Miss them both.

Tricia a loving partner and sister.
Patricia McCann:
30/07/2021
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Alas I had another stressful day at work. It is It is times like this I miss Gary for the loving support he gave o me. I am a nurse to trade as they say. I have to deal with many a difficult situation. I had the comfort of the person I was sharing my life with, which made it bearable. Still Gary is not in my life any longer, however I take strength in having known and loved the man. This is the season I have survived The Covid situation since it began. I take great comfort for the loving memories off our life together
Patricia McCann:
21/07/2021
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Happy Birthday Gary. It's Gary's birthday today. When I finished my work today I visited his grave in Bent Cemetery Hamilton and laid a fresh bunch of a dozen red roses and informed him how much I have missed him this past 5 years. The last Birthday Gary, I and our dog Patsy was in July 2016. Gary was working in Kent and I and Patsy drove down to stay the week with him and to celebrate his Birthday. I remember that week as if it were yesterday. The weather was lovely just as it is today. Gary, I and Patsy would go for long walks when Gary had finished his working day. On his Birthday we went for a lovely meal. Patsy in tow as Kent is very dog friendly and dog's are allowed in some of the restaurants. Patsy and I spent many a holiday week down in Kent over the years when Gary worked there. More happy memories shared of Gary and I's life together.
Patricia McCann:
20/07/2021
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20/07/2021
July already. Gary's birthday is the 20th July. (Call me an old sentimentalist), I have kept every birthday card I sent Gary in the 17 years we lived together. I have also kept all the Birthday cards he sent me, (all are very loving cards). He was good at picking theses cards, which maybe a surprise to people who knew him in the past as they probably did not think of Gary as showing his feelings in this way, but this was a side of Gary that I knew. I have also kept every valentine cards he sent me , I have also kept the ones he sent me. I think I must be a romantic at heart as well.
Patricia McCann:
03/07/2021
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03/07/2021