Ah Burns night is upon us again. I am cooking Haggis, neaps and Tatties. I remember the first time I made this dish for Gary, with a little nip of a good whisky, the year was 2000. He thoroughly enjoyed my meal. I was so pleased as this was the first time I had made him Haggis, Neaps and Tatties. Miss him tremendously at this time of year.

Tricia Gary's Loving Partner. x

Feeling a great deal lonely tonight as I have always done since Gary passed way peacefully with me by his side in our home in Carluke. I cannot forget the night he passed away. Gary wished from the day that we were informed there was no hope for him, that I bring him home. I did. That night was so lonely. I have no words to express apart from it was so lonely for me, so unsupported I felt. However I was glad that I could give Gary his wish that he passed way with me by his side.
Gary's loving partner Tricia.

New year is almost upon us. Tonight I just realised that the tributes I have left for Gary has been viewed by over 10,000 reviews. Its nice to know that people are reading my tributes to Gary.

Tricia Gary's loving partner.

I visited Gary's grave today in Bent Cemetery Hamilton. I placed a wreath on his grave. I had my usual chat with him and let him know that I miss him and he remains in my heart and thoughts forever.

Tricia Gary's loving partner.

Going to bed Gary. Good night. Will think of you in my dreams as I do when I am awake.

Tricia Gary's loving partner.

I, my sister Elizabeth and Barbara visited our sister Anne in Girvan on Wednesday, we stayed overnight. We all totally enjoyed our visit to Anne. What I enjoyed most of all is the memories we shared talking about Gary. When I met Gary, Anne was my first sister to meet him, they both got on like as they say 'a house on fire'. He was very fond of Anne as he was when he met Barbara and Elizabeth. It felt good to me that, even though he passed away over 6 years ago I and my family can still talk about Gary, thus he has never been forgotten, which brings great joy to me. I know Gary would be pleased that I am still able to share good memories of our life together with my family and friends.

Tricia, Gary's loving partner.

I am feeling a little melancholy tonight. I have just listened to a song Gary introduced to me. I had never heard it before until he played it for me. It is by Neil Young entitled 'Harvest Moon'. It was not the usual type of music Gary listened too. However one night in the 'Wee Thakie' in Carluke he put his money in the juke box and dedicated this song too me. Hence the reason I am feeing melancholy. Every time I play it, it takes me back to the night Gary played if for me. It is a very romantic song. I hope the people who have read my 'in memorandum' over the years, 10.000 to date, have many happy memories of being part of Gary's Life, perhaps they feel unable to do so. why I do not know why all I can say is in the 17 years we lived together we had our up's and downs, however we always got though them. Surely that is true love.

Tricia, Gary's loving partner.

My Birthday is almost upon me. The 5th of November. I was born the 5/11/1957. I will be 65 years old on Saturday. My doesn't time fly. Still I am healthy enough to work on full time. Looking back on my health life I suppose I am lucky that I have never had any serious health problems in my life. I look back on those years and the people I have loved and lost. Gary being one of them. I miss him everyday since he passed peacefully at home with me by his side. When I look back on the day he was diagnosed with terminal lung cancer, his wish he discussed with me, was to be be at home with me in the last hours of his life. I am glad I was strong enough to grant him this wish, hard was it was to watch him deteriorate, I feel glad that he passed away at home with me by his side. I will hold that memory of that last night we spent together, it broke my heart and will do forever.

Tricia Gary's loving partner xxx