If only you knew how much you are missed, my heart is broken Paul 💔

I'll miss u till the day I take my last breath, it will never be the same without u Paul xx

Sorry I'm late but not good boy god wish you was here as you understood 🙏 ❤️ me listen to me laugh with me 😅 with me I hope u had a fantastic time today up in heaven ❤️ think about you every day miss you think I can still hear u shouting Donna it's newcombes open door not once did I never answer u as people have different things about people we had our secrets our laughs and I miss it all I never needed a angel for my Xmas tree as I had a beautiful friend PAUL shining gold star on top of my tree xx write soon in my heart ❤️ everyday 🌲🌹🙏😪😇🌟💫xx

Hi just wish u was here to talk to my friend I'm so down and goin through so much miss u so much in my heart 💜 forever xxxx

Miss you more each day never ever forgotten in my heart forever no one could ever replace you, you were and are will always be IRREPLACEABLE xxxx

You I never do again and u was getting upset about u know and u said to me I will do it I said will you u laughed I said promise me u feel down anything u come see me u swore u wouldn't do anything stupid u let me down I was angry annoyed but u stopped me. I still cry today people can believe what they want no one knows the bond we had friendship never dies I said then I couldn't take it in thinking what we talked about u saved me u were my hero and then I had some people who came to my house that was supposed to have been your good friends 4 people they started saying stuff about you I was just thinking what do I do hit them but my head was goin so went upstairs and told them to go . on my mum dad's grave people can believe what they want I have every paper of what happend to me and why I have memory BMI.
I had my 2 knee replacement want be to long know when I recovered.
I do go out talk to you have fag when I can as can't walk boy at all so I do shuffle down Kaya Kelly help me and I sit on chair talk to you next door must think but I couldn't care who says what anymore boy as I so much pain 24 hours in my bedroom on my own don't even see family only when got no where to go my son work busy so don't see my grandkids might be once month or face time me once week god I miss them he want let them stay for bit with me kills me my grandkids my life miss u more each day my true friend xxx

Hi my friend god I feel so bad I ain't been on here I broke my phone and ain't been well still waiting for operation on my knees can't even walk know I got a wheelchair but I can't go out as my head not good I was thinking other day if you was here u would of been up down road to the shops wheeling in the chair u always brought me out of my bad days always made me laugh sit. Talk to me for hours I would hear you buzz my buzzer I got a new one in this house led lights up at night all things on it camera everything you would shout through buzzer it's newcombes Donna only me I never once didn't answer you as a true and honest friend 💓 u helped me so much and we had plans to go on Britain got talent u was determined we would Peter Andre and Beyonce lol but why leave and promised me I having the BMI episodes alot again I phoned fire brigade ambulance police couple weeks ago to my house I swear on my mum dad grave I couldn't even remember it until all pulled up said I haven't. Phoned you police checked my phone and I did but why don't know my proffeser mental health said it's when I stress to much my steams in my brain swell and memory loss it's horrible so frustrating knowing I can't even remember I that stressed as don't know I do it.
I have Kaya check my phone every hour as it so annoying and it scares me that why I never go back on Facebook or any media after u died and still kills me why and I never ever once remberd till this day people judge me ain't had friend come see me since u died.
I have every paperwork with proof but my sister wanted put up on Facebook for people to read and show my illness but I said no as what people said about me I never forget I would never ever done anything and of all people it happen to you my true friend, the drs said it started as 2 days before u left u came for charger u were there for hours and u saw my marks u know where what I mean u sat on my bed cuddled me and u made me promise you.

I'm broken x