When i was a kid I thought there was no one stronger than you. When i was a teenager I thought there was no one who could love me as much as you. Now, as an adult, i know there is no man i’ve ever known that was like you. I haven’t lost a grandad, i’ve lost a dad.
I’m going to miss our Wednesday night chats, our sunday night gossips, and the incredible man that accepted me, and loved me, no matter what. It doesn’t matter how many words i write, i still can’t express how much i love you, how thankful i am that you chose to raise me, and how much my heart is breaking because you couldn’t stay with us.
I’m so proud to be called your grandaughter, and I’m thankful i got to tell you just how much i loved you, and i felt the same love in return from you every single day. I still can’t believe you’re gone, i still find myself saying ‘nana and grandad’ in the present tense, and it makes me so sad when I remember you’re an angel now.
So, watch over me angel of mine, give me the strength to carry on in a way that would make you proud. Give me the belief that it won’t always hurt that you’re gone, and that i will find my smile again and feel only happiness when i think about you.
I cry because i miss you, but i will smile because i love you, and until we meet again, goodnight grandad
Love always, Nichola xxx
Nichola:
15/03/2021