Heya hughesy
It's been a while I never know what to write or say most of the time who would have thought you would one day render me speechless.
But it's been hard very hard
It hit me today again and I broke holding on to the blue blanket that the hospital wrapped you up in while you was going to sleep. I held it and cried screamed into it. It's almost been a year and it's not even close to being or getting easier.

It's a myth people say when a loved one passes to hopefully make a person feel better but its a proven lie.
Sounds negative I know but I was always the one with negative thoughts and you was the positive thoughts.
I miss you steve
Love you.
Until we meet again

Happy heavenly birthday old pal I'll be raising a glass for you today

Happy heavenly birthday Steve, well we didn't expect it to be like this . Its the wrong way round , it's granny Mary's anniversary to day . She died onyour birthday. You also have your mate from the stute up with you as of Monday .so you can all have a celebration today . Miss you sooooo much . We are heart broken . Till we meet again never out of our thoughts love you Mom and dad xxxx

my hubby,
I just dont know where to start, i hope you have your dancing shoes for your big day tomorrow you oldie, 50 tomorrow bless ya, i miss and love you so much words cannot express, the pain is so hard to cope with im so lost without you, love you so much, i hope you are lookin after my white money :), ur 50 tomorrow, wowwww bithday man please keep watching over us, and sit by me when u can, hold my hand, hug me, do my head in like you did, me telling you off and you sitting there with that grin/ smile, i would.do and give anything just to have you back home even if it was few seconds or mins, but i know i would want more, i love and miss you so much my hubby,
Together forever
Mrs H

Happy 50th birthay for tomorrow my hubby
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It's coming up to your birthday Steve oh how I wish I could see,you . To hear your voice . To have you walk through the door go straight into the kitchen and look for any food you might like . Give me those days back . Miss you soooo much son .

To Hughsey
I am sorry its took so long to write on here its just hard to find the words to put or even to have the strength to write it.
All I wished for the start of Jan for 2023 is a easy year with no surprises as after last year's surprise I still cannot take another yet.
It's coming up to octavias birthday and then your birthday after, it's hard knowing you were the only person to see her on her first birthday and for her 3rd you will only be here in spirit it's hard to fathom.
Your birthday I am scared yet exited. It will be a amazing day for you we will make sure of it and you will have your beer but eventually after it will hurt and be like a penny has dropped and its going to painful.
We all miss you so so much we love you and always think about you in everything we do.
Until we meet again love you Steve.

It's six months today my lovely boy since you left us devastated, wondering if you could survive, me and your dad miss you soooo much . We long to hear your voice, your dad has no one to talk to him about the blues anymore . We loved you sooo much ,till we meet again mom and dad xxxxxxx