The obituary notice of Phillip JARVIS

I often wonder were all this time as gone, o often wonder were you have gone. It’s after having lost my first husband, nothing as ever been real since. I know but how I know o don’t understand. But death can not really mean the end. Well not in my world, what would be the point to life if death was the end. How come if you remember I used to give you the heebie jeebies, when I told you things were going to happen and they did. How can I feel you, and Steve. I don’t understand how or why these things happen. How I can sense things and you around but no I don’t quite understand why death is classed at the end. I remember when they said 6/8 months my prognosis and I looked him in the eyes and said no, I refuse to die they thought I was in denial but you knos phill I wasn’t I had never had my feet more firmly on the ground. I knew I would fight with everything I had, I have seen to many people go in there and come out crying. But I never once cried, those I felt who had cried had accepted their fate. Were I never once felt I was prepared for death. I knew instantly I would give cancer a run for its money. So here I am almost 11 years later, still
Living. I can imagine some of the things that have been said but I have always allowed anyone to come with me to say they were shocked was an understatement. But I knew one day it would catch up. But I can not moan I have met 3 grandchildren I never thought I would. Also quality of life was well and truly affected. It’s now having it in other parts of the body with heart failure to go with it. I still will not cry but I know my own personal battles are over. No more treatment no more of anything as my life has changed so drastically the quality is not always with living I say that from my heart of someone who totally refused to die. But the quality if I went for more treatment genuinely would not serve me well at all. So hey kiddo were every you are I will find you always xxxxxxx

Hey dad, sorry it's been awhile as you may have noticed I've been a little but busy 😊.. we think and talk about you all the time.. miss you soooooo much its unbelievable. I can't wait to tell Autumn all about our memories together.
I love you always and forever dad. You would love Bowser xxxxx
Amanda, Archie, Autumn and Bowser

I love you darling, I miss you. If time as taught us anything it to treasure each moment more. You never know what the future as in store for us, so treasure every single minute of our time with those that we love xxxx

I love and love and miss you my darling brother
Always I love you
Xxxxxxxxx

Hey Dad, well what can I say things have been very different and weird the past couple of months. I have been thinking about you alot, wish you was here more than anything. Love u always daddy. Amanda xxxxxxx

Happy birthday dad, I hope ur having a blast with uncle Steve... can't believe how time is flying by how is it nearly 10 years already when it only feels like yesterday. God I miss you so much, I hope I see u in my dreams would love a chat, to see you to hug u. Miss u dad more and more each day. Love u always and forever daddy xxxxxxx