Although we knew it was coming it's still never easy to take, losing a loved one always causes such heartache! That pain in your heart, the lump in your throat, that swaying feeling like you're on a boat! A wave of emotions spreading through you; such sadness and sorrow, but love and regrets too. I hope you heard my voice when I came to visit the other day. I'm so sorry I didn't visit often and let my life get in the way! I should have put more effort in and made more time for you. I'm glad I got that one last chance to tell you I love you! You looked so small and fragile it wasn't easy to see. Not visiting you regularly will be a big regret for me!
Growing old can be so cruel and take so much of yourself away! I can't imagine what it was like for you, sat there day after day. Once a strong tall man, dressing so smartly, attending church and out for a drink and spending time with the family. I used to love Sundays, when you and gran would come to ours, Sunday dinner at your house Grans gravy the best by far! Going for walks in prestwich clough, those times with grandparents just never enough! Everything just seemed so magical at yours, and simply just the best. Those never ending mirrors and grass better than the rest! That might seem a little silly but honestly it's true, the deck chairs in your back garden are some of the best times that I knew! Christmas day night at ours was fun when we were all together, sneaking down to pinch your martini and getting caught never! Sometimes I wish I could wind back time and be that child again, I wish I could have got through life having never felt this pain! These past few years have been so hard with all the loved ones that have gone. I'll cherish all these memories and remember everyone! Goodbye my lovely Grandpa until we meet again, I hope you're back with mum and Gran and no longer feeling pain! Sleep tight now with the angels and be my guiding light, another bright star added to the dark sky in the night.
Xxx
Laura
26/01/2024
