The obituary notice of Stephanie Moira GOLDSTRAW

I cant believe its been 4 years (nearly 5) now. It seems with each passing day it gets harder to believe youre gone forever. I start my gcses on Friday, like, my real gcses, how crazy is that? Not to mention im off to college in september, speaking of college, I have a conditional place at St Helens College! Im gonna pursue art and design. I did choose science as my subject at first but it just didnt feel right you know? Art has always been my passion and even though my secondary school art teacher made me dislike it for a while, i met the art teachers at the college and theyre super nice so im gonna give it a chance. Oh theres a leavers mass at my school tomorrow, i know you cant be there physically so please show up in spirit. Dads going to it and i would love both of you to be there, Ben doesnt come home until 4 and it finishes at 3 so unfortunately he wont be there. Me and Daniel have been together for 7 months now, weird how the concept of time work, right? I think you wouldve loved him, hes the sweetest person ever, next to you of course, and very polite. I wish you could come home even for a minute so i could hug you, how tinker? I think him and star wouldve gotten along well, theyre exactly like each other, affectionate menaces haha. Grandad David passed away last week, if he's up there with you can you let him know i came to see him one last time before he passed? I miss his jokes and the blue bags he would make me of a morning already. Im 17 in November and then in a year im legally an adult, how insane is that? I hope you are all having a good laugh up there together, even if it means I cant be there to witness it, I hope i get to see you all someday, we would get to catch up on all youve missed, love you all always and forever - lilly <3

I will never understand why the stars needed you more than I did. I need you mum.

Hey mum, it's been a while. I wanted to update you on my life so I hope youre reading this and i hope youre having a great time up there with nan, jen and tinker. For starters im 16 now, I still wish you got to see me become a teenager and be there to cheer me on with how far I've gotten. I have a boyfriend named Daniel, he's a real sweetheart and treats me like a queen, I have an incredible group of friends who treat me well and care about me and we got a new cat about 2 years ago named star. I think you would've loved him. It's hard sometimes knowing you won't ever return. I need you a lot of the time and you aren't here to help. I love you, I hope you send me a sign youre watching over me soon.