The obituary notice of Karl GOSTELOW

I love ❤️ you so much Karl I really wish you were here with me I miss that we can’t enjoy our lives together anymore going out for trips to wherever you could think about going to, I even miss having the chance to go food shopping with you all the times I couldn’t be bothered & now wish I had the chance to, I wish we could go on the fantastic holidays we’ve had to go this country where we could take woof woof Alfie & Clarke us all together as a family like we have or a holiday abroad the 3 of us or with Mam or your Mam & Dad all these fantastic holidays we’ve been on no matter which even though I moaned about some places didn’t look how I expected but once we were there like the next day they were always better than I first thought I think most was having the unpacking to get sorted & find places where items were going to be put & trying to keep it looking nice & tidy because you know what I was like wanting things neat when maids came in can you remember that time we were in Portugal & we had food & bits left & I drew that picture of maids with an arrow pointing to the maid & the food so they sort of understood what we meant for them & you laughed at it some to do with the drawing & some saying they won’t understand & they would just throw them you said I was a silly c** they wouldn’t understand just bin them & I said no but I wonder if they ever got it or if they took them anyway or did do what you said they would do & just binned them anyway haha we had a great holiday the first time we went to Portugal we packed loads of excursions in like we had loads of great days out each time we went to America & you really surprised me with your driving it was just like we lived there you just knew how to drive properly even though it was opposite sides to England you were just so calm & just got us to where we were going just as if you were going to somewhere here just except the time we were coming back from a theme park & that woman honked at you & called you a white hon

I am struggling Karl because I am missing you so so much it’s so strange you not being here you are always in my heart & mind but nothing compares to you being here with me I have cried loads for you & loads over the last couple of days I cry so many times most days but today like many others I have cried lots during the day I think I have stopped but I start again at the same time talking to you when the words come out properly I see something on tv saying that’s what we should be doing especially if you had managed to make it to your retirement date we should of had all that time we could of done what we wanted go wherever no worries about only having a week or two before having to get back to work we could of just booked for when & how long we chose it would of been absolutely fantastic I miss it all Karl you, us, holidays,sat watching tv,films,going to the club just everything we should of had no cares just enjoying life together I love 🧡 you so much Duck 🦆 my Mr Duck my love 🩵 I just really really miss you Karl I wish you hadn’t had to go it’s just not fair you had loads & loads of years left to live in good health we were supposed to grow old together you & me me & you us two living life to the full life is just so cruel you have been taken away from me & you’re in my heart & mind like I said but now it’s just me & not we I so so wish it was still we we are in my head but not in person I can’t touch you kiss you have a conversation watch tv at night can’t go to bed can’t have tea & toast in bed on a weekend & Clarke come & get in between us sharing it with us even woof woof Alfie I miss him so much & woof Bully I know you’ll be looking after them in Heaven & you’re with your family & mine I love 💕 & miss you all so much, I love 🧡 you Duck big kisses from your Mrs Duck Kath XXXX forever love you my Mr Duck XXXX 🌹🩵🙏🧡🦆🦆🫶🥰😘😢🤍💔 xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx 💙🩷🦆🦆

Love you load’s duck 🦆 am missing you so much & wishing with all of my heart ❤️ you was here with me I often think you are sat in your place on the settee I start asking you things then realise when I get no answer back to it or start saying about the tv programmes we usually watch, I am always talking to you about things as though you are there as usual, I show your picture of us all when we were on holiday things on my iPad or like on Saturday that as far as I see nobody parked on your disabled spot on front because there was a match then I say why couldn’t they of been like it when those times you daren’t move because they would park on it, I hate when adverts come on for new cars because all I think about is you with your car & you never got to use it & it should be parked on front because you would be in bed at this time of night or we would be watching tv together it’s just so unfair duck 🦆 you never got to use loads of things you had just got new like your new tv I have on in front of me & small things I find unopened ou had bought for yourself new clothes etc you never got to wear I really hate it because you should be driving around in your car wearing your clothes using the things you bought or your presents you should be here doing all of this duck & I should never of had to go live at Burchester all that time we could of been spending together not you here & me in there especially when I found out after I got back living here that we could of been together I didn’t need to be in there because all that time I could of had a Manga here but nobody told us so that has made me so angry that all the time we could of been spending together we couldn’t because nobody bothered to inform us about the manga not even when I had to use it in there we could & should’ve been together if only they had been bothered to tell us, I am so sorry we could of been together I know I was mardi & we both was at times & argued but always made things up we loved each other I 🧡U

I haven’t forgotten you KARL because I haven’t put anything on for few days I am missing you so much bless you I will never ever forget you you are my husband & always will be, I just want you back here with us healthy & happy 🥰 I am still finding it hard to get myself accepting you are not in the care home anymore in my head that’s where you still are I just wish I could talk to you on iMessage like we always did I knew when we couldn’t be together we could always talk on there, I love ❤️ you loads duck 🦆 all my love forever love Kath xxxx 🧡

Night duck 🦆 love you from Kath XXXX