Grandad, it seems slightly strange leaving a message for you online, but I know you are into your technology, so I feel you’d appreciate this, even if you had to message me asking how to work it every time I saw you.
It’s taking me a while to write this, so much I want to say, so much I wish you was still around for me to tell you in person when I finally returned home from Vietnam.
I’m so sad you’re not here in person anymore, but I know you’d tell me to stop being silly and that you’ve lived a good full life.
I will miss your messages every week or so asking how I am and that you “hope I’m happy and life is good” - you said this on EVERY message. I will miss hearing you laugh when I tell you my stories about things that have happened recently in my life.
I’m sad I never got to do things I know you’d have loved to have seen. Get married, have children, or be settled somewhere. I’m sure you’d say “you’ll get there & I just want you to be happy” so I guess I can’t dwell on thinking of what you didn’t see, as long as I am happy in life, because that’s all you want for everyone.
It’s been a tough year for you and our family, so many hospital visits and the loss of Wendy. I’m glad you aren’t in pain anymore, or have people prodding you and giving you medicine that makes everything taste like metal. I hope you are at peace now.
I hope you know how much I loved you and still do. I’ll forever keep your messages and whenever I think of you I can read them for comfort when I’m down.
I wished for so much more time with you in my life, but I can relax knowing you felt fulfilled in life, with so many people who loved you. I feel I’ll be heartbroken for such a long time. But I’ve got to keep plodding on and experiencing new things in my life and one day I hope to be as fulfilled in life as you were - because that’s all you ever wanted for me.
I miss you, I’ll love you forever,
Your granddaughter, Laura. xxX
Laura Straker
02/05/2020
