Night bless old man ..... ♥️Xx

Another Thursday , without you , 53 now and it’s still the same as the first one .... I keep thinking about my last moments with you , your last words. oh I wish I could go back to the day I meet you so I could do it all again I would do it again and again and again .... you are my heartbeat my hero my angel my love my Tom ... I miss you and love you so much ... till we meet again ♥️. X

I’m sad .... another Sunday and you're not here I hate it because I can’t pretend you're at work ... I can’t pretend you're pottering around sorting everything out ....... I hate the weekends everyone looks forward to them I don’t ...I hate them.... the house is so quiet ... I want to just run away .... oh my sweetheart I wish this pain would stop ... but being with you for so long and now you're not here is hard it’s the worst pain ever and whoever thinks you get over this is a fool you just park it .. it is my first and last thought everyday and everyday is the same as the day before ....it’s woeful ..... but I carry on do what has to be done but there is no joy no happiness no sunshine ...... just dark clouds thunder storms and extremely cold windy days.... what this year has taught me is ..... people don’t care they become bored of you and glaze over if you try and explain why you feel so sad .... one day they will stand in my shoes and realise it isn’t easy it’s so so debilitating....my Tom my hero my heartbeat my life my world ..... I love you I adore and we will meet again ...forever heartbroken ...my Tom my hero xxxx rest in peace xxxx ♥️💔xxx

A year ... where as that time gone .... I’ve no more words .... I’ve shouted I’ve cried I’ve spoke to you But nothing changes ... it’s been a lonely year just as I said it would be ... life will never ever be the same ... I love you so much Tom ... I remember the day as if it were yesterday .... and as I sit here it feels like yesterday it really does .... I remember what was happening and at what time who said what what I said to them ... your last words you said .... I remember everything the next day when I came to see you what I said to them when they said , do you want us to sit with you ... no I said it’s my Tom I don’t need help or support or anything .... it’s my Tom .... he won’t hurt me ... you looked so very peaceful .... and I kept coming much to the annoyance of everyone ... but I didn’t care no one was stopping me from seeing my Tom my hero my everything..... I love you adore you you are my heartbeat and will be forever more .... I was proud to be your wife the mother of your children ... I love you sweetheart so so much .... till we meet again ... ♥️💔xxx

A year to the minute .... weather is the same but nothing else is ..... my Tom my life my everything.... I still can’t believe it ... 💔

Where has the last year gone ... where .... there’s not a day I haven’t spoke to you shouted around you cried for you .... you were so very very ill , you were so very very brave , you were my hero and no one will ever ever ever match your braveness your strength your determination ...... my only comfort is that you aren’t struggling any more and I know you didn’t want to go I know you did everything you could to come home , but it was all too much and I know you did everything you could so I didn’t worry any more than I did .... you Tommy Seal is was and always will be my hero the bravest man ever ever ever to have walked this planet and I am so privileged to have been and always will be your wife ....rest well sleep tight and I’m one year closer to being back with you .... I love you adore you and I will miss you forever and ever .... see you soon sweetheart..... my Tom my hero my love my heartbeat ♥️Xxxxxxxx love yo you so so much xxxx