Happy anniversary
45 years ago I was getting so excited 11.15 Chelmsley register office
I wish it was today ….
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I love you adore you miss you I hate everything without you …. Until we meet again … I will continue to look for you listen for you hope for you
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3 years today , 3 long hard years , life hasn’t and will never ever be the same. I still listen for the gate I still hope it’s all an awful dream I know it’s not I know you’ve gone and I’m way too sad and miserable to try and think otherwise , the loneliness emptiness is so awful . I’ve needed you so much lately but I’ve no one to reach out to , no one really cares if truth be known , I just can’t explain the feeling of being lost, I know people are proper bored with me but I can’t shake myself out of it I just go through the motions of being alive. All that keeps me going is the fact you're not struggling any more your out of pain and your at peace and it’s my own fault I’m this miserable . But I do try Tom I really do but it’s so hard so very hard. I will love you forever miss you forever you are my hero my everything…..till we meet again my wonderful lovely Tom … sleep tight 💙🕊
Love you so much so very very much 💙🕊💙🕊💙🕊

Hello sweetheart I’m back I try to stay away but I can’t …. Thursdays will never ever be the same , ever … I’ve joined an online type of group and I there are a lot of people suffering , I knew I wasn’t alone but I now realise I’m not going mad ….. 45 years ago today you were in hospital awaiting your first surgery on the infamous left femur , 1st of lots and lots ….and I thought tat was the worst day of my life ever …. How wrong was I , on the 30th of this month 3 years ago and every day since has been the worst days of my life …. I just sit and think and wonder how things would be if you were still here , you would be retired and I would be happy happy happy …. But no I’m just so so so miserable and very lonely …. I wish you would send me a sign to let me know your beside me looking out for me … not heard from anyone not seen anyone for over a month and some nearly two months and absolutely nothing from your lot … it’s a lonely sad life I lead these days …. I love and adore you so much I miss you more each and every day ….. my hero my heartbeat my Tom my life the absolute love of my life …. That’s my Tommy seal … my Tom I love you sweetheart so much … 🕊💙….

Hello sweetheart… I really hope your watching over me I really do ….missing you so much I’m running out of words to say how much I miss you … you are my heartbeat my life my hero …. I am so lost Tom so lonely so miserable I just wish you would come back , I know you can’t but I wish you would …. I love and adore you so much and the missing you just gets worse and worse … my Tom my hero my heartbeat my everything…. Till we meet again sweetheart, wait for me 🕊💙♥️🕊… I love you tommy seal xxxx

Hello sweetheart
Been another rubbish week, I’ve been so poorly but I’ve pushed on and carried on and all I needed was a cup of your tea and to be told it’s gonna be ok … but that’s not gonna happen… I’m really fed up of the constant worry and stress it just gets harder without you … I love you adore you miss you like mad I wish you were here I wish I could have made you better … no one understands , no one …. My Tom my hero my heartbeat the absolute love of my life …. 🕊💙🕊💙🕊💙🕊💙🕊💙🕊💙… sleep tight sweetheart… till we meet again 🕊💙🕊💙🕊💙🕊💙

Happy Birthday sweetheart 67 today , 3 years ago the doctors said you could come home , we were so happy after 15 days in hospital … I wish I could speak to you I wish you were here , but a Tom that’s well and happy and healthy and strong . Oh how I miss you . I Wish I had a magic wand , i hate my life without you .,life is so very very empty . I hope your having a party with your dad . I just can’t put into words how much I miss you how awful my life is without you . I know we had lots of birthdays together but I wanted lots more . Oh tom I want to sit by the sea with you I want to drink a cup of tea with you I just want you , I just want you back , back with me . Happy Birthday sweetheart I love you so much , so very very much . I love you miss you adore you more and more each day ♥️Xxx