I am a day off tomorrow will visit Gary's grave and lay fresh flowers on his grave. He is still never far from my thoughts and heart.

Tricia Gary's loving partner.

I have a day off off tomorrow. I will visit Gary's grave. I will place as I always do for the past almost 7 years a bunch of fresh flowers on his grave. I visit Gary's grave on a regular basis as I loved the man and still do to this day. When I visit his grave I seem to remove the flowers I have placed on his grave. It would be nice to remove some one else's flowers as it would let me know that he was as important
in life to me in life as he was to others.

The month of April is nearly at an end already. It was this time of year that Gary would arrange a holiday abroad for us both. Booked in May. Our favourite place at this time of year for a holiday was to Olhao in Portugal. Gary loved this area the apartments we booked were 5 star. Gary always felt it was a nice relaxing holiday. The last time we were in Portugal was May 20016. As usual we had a lovely holiday. There was one thing that Gary did on this holiday that he had never done before was a few days before we were due to come home he booked the apartment for a holiday in May 2017. Alas we did not go on that holiday as at the time of Gary booking it we did not now that he was unwell and would pass peacefully at home with Metastatic Lung Cancer in September 2016. Some people suggested I still go on that holiday however I was still too devastated and grieving for Gary to even think of doing this. I cancelled this holiday. The grieving process can take a long time I know because I have been through it and still today although it is 7 years ago this year Gary passed I grieve for the lost time we could have shared together. My memories and love for Gary to this day keep me content in the fact that I met him and shared a life with him in the time we had together.

Tricia Gary's Loving partner.

Easter Sunday I enjoyed a meal at a lovely restaurant in Kilsyth with my sister, brother in-law and nephews. One thing on the menu was Lambs liver with a red wine sauce. It brought back happy memories of the time Gary used to cook Lambs liver. He watched a cook program one Saturday morning and there was a recipe for Lambs liver with an orange sauce. Gary being Gary decided to cook this menu. Lambs Liver is nit everyone's cup of tea however when Gary cooked it using this recipe it tasted lovely. I choose the Lambs liver on the menu it was tasty but not as tasty as the way Gary cooked it. I chatted with every one about how Gary cooked this dish. Although Gary passed 7 years ago this year I still feel comfortable talking about him and the many different things we shared together. My family and friends do the same. It is comforting to know that I can speak about Gary and share those memories with family and friends. It shows that even though he is not here in body he is never far away from our memories and heart.

Tricia Gary's loving partner.

At this time of year, the day before Good Friday. Gary being self employed always had these days off. If he were alive today he would be returning home to me to spend Easter with me as we always did in the 17 years we lived together and loved each other. We both had family however we always spent Easter together. So tonight my thoughts are with Gary, he is never far from my thoughts especially at times of the year like this. My memories of these times we spent together at Easter, now that I am on my own since Gary passed away, I feel privileged and happy that God gave me the opportunity of meeting and knowing Gary all those years ago.

Tricia Gary's loving partner.

Easter weekend is upon us already. As Gary was a Self Employed Commissioning Engineer, he always had Easter weekend off. We always spent Easter weekend together. I would always buy him an easter egg and encouraged him to roll it on Easter Sunday. He would always laugh and state "I have never met a woman like you in my life" I think I was a bit more 'Jockey about things than Gary'. However I knew he loved these little things I did. I believe That's part of life, you have to do silly little things in life for the one you love. Some of these silly little things I did for Gary in the 17 years we lived together I know he enjoyed, appreciated, because I know it made him feel loved and wanted. I will miss him this easter. However I have many a happy memories of all the easters we spent together.

Tricia Gary's loving partner.

I visited Gary's grave today and laid a lovely bunch of roses. I informed him about the point to point races on 26th March and let him know what a lovely day it was and that all our friends were there. The only thing missing was Gary. However our friends still talk about Gary which I find very comforting in that he is not forgotten. Whilst I was there I also placed two single roses on his parents grave and I asked them to look after Gary. It looked as if his parents had a recent visitor as there was a plant planted on their grave which was not there the last I visited. I visit Gary's grave at least once a month and I always leave flowers as I feel it lets people who are visiting their relatives know that Gary is still loved by me.

Tricia Gary's Loving Partner.

Feeling a bit sad tonight, thinking of Gary. I will say a little prayer for him tonight before I go to bed. I have little conversations with God, when I am feeling sad that Gary is not by myside. I take comfort in knowing that God is looking after Gary.

Tricia Gary's loving partner.

Yesterday was the point to point races. What a beautiful day it was, the weather was great the company terrific. This was a yearly event I and Gary enjoyed tremendously. Jean as she always does every year organised all the food and drink. I put my usual small bet on each horse race and bought raffle tickets, the proceed for the raffle go to the riding for the disabled. All Gary and I's friends were there. All his friends still miss him as well and his name was mentioned during conversations with them remembering all the good times we all had when Gary was alive. It is nice to know that they miss him and still talk about him. I could feel Gary's presence with me and I know he would be looking after me. I will visit Gary's grave today and lay a bunch of flowers and let him know the lovely day I had with all our friends.

Tricia Gary's loving partner.